The Strength of an Ox

I just got back from a short marriage retreat. (Yes, this has been a month of retreats for our family!) It was enjoyable. On the first night we watched a video about the differences between how men and women think. The pastor used a verse to describe marriage that I had never heard before. I'm sure I've read it, but have never thought about it much.


"Where there are no oxen, the manger is empty, but from the strength of an ox comes an abundant harvest." Proverbs 14:4 (NIV)

Or from another translation..."Where no oxen are, the crib is clean; but much increase is by the strength of the ox."

At first glance this verse appears to be all about farming, which is probably why I didn't pay any attention to it. But I like how it was explained. Basically, if there are no oxen in the barn, there is no "poo" to clean up. Seems great, right? Less work...no animal to feed, no need to clean the barn, no effort required. But there is also no reward. From the strength of an ox comes an abundant harvest! Applied to marriage it means that marriage takes work. It may seem easier to just kick the husband out and have less to worry about. But by doing so, we would lose all the blessings that come from having a marriage that has stood the test of time.

This verse can also be applied to parenting. If I had no kids, I would have a cleaner house and significantly less work to do! But the rewards of being a parent are greater.

I came across yet another application of this verse that I liked, written by a Baptist pastor..."Now if we don't want any problems, simply bar sinners from our doors. But that is not what God called us to do. We are supposed to be reaching out to people; all colors, all sizes, all shapes, all kinds of people who need help."Where no oxen are, the crib is clean." But thank God for the sinners who come here, dirty up our church and make us justify our existence. This pastor has a good point. Except I would say that if a church barred all sinners from its doors, it would be an empty building!

Whichever of these scenarios resonates with you, I challenge you not to be overwhelmed by the work and problems that your "oxen" create, but keep your eyes focused on the prize...on the abundant blessings that the strength of the "ox" will bring.

Picture Perfect

As I go through pictures we've taken and watch home videos, I realize that I am in very few of them. The pictures still bring back memories for me, because I was there watching everything unfold, however I'm not IN the pictures. Why? Partially because I'm the one that normally grabs the camera to capture the moment. But also because I shy away from the camera. I'm not the only woman who doesn't like to be captured on film unless she's "prepared". So why do we do that? Why are we so critical of ourselves?

Rick Warren writes "God prescribed every single detail of your body. He deliberately chose your race, the color of your skin, your hair, and every other feature. He custom-made your body just the way he wanted it...The Bible says You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something". Psalm 139:15

Who am I to argue with my Creator? Dare I tell him that he made me wrong? From this day forward I am going to embrace who I am...inside and out. And I will encourage Jeremy to pick up the camera more so that I can be captured and remembered as being part of the family!

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You're JUST what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God.

-Russell Kelfer

How Do YOU Eat an Oreo Cookie?

This is how the Gessners eat an Oreo cookie...on a fork! Jeremy came up with this idea as a child and began a tradition. He wanted to be able to immerse the Oreo in milk without getting his fingers messy. Now even little Brady enjoys his Oreo on a fork (actually, it's a generic sandwich cookie...but he doesn't know the difference)

Speaking of Brady, he turns 2 years old next week. My "baby" is growing up. I'm trying to treasure this time with him. He is the only one of my boys that is still a mama's boy. He wants to be with me all the time and smothers me with hugs and kisses. Last night I was laying on the floor and he was blowing raspberries on my stomach, making his brothers laugh hysterically because it sounded like mommy was farting (for those of you without boys...this is what it's like!) Then I got out the video camera and taped the boys playing hide and seek with daddy...all of them screaming like little girls when they found Jeremy. Moments I will always treasure.

Brady turning 2 is significant, because if I would have kept to my child-bearing pattern, baby #4 would soon be on the scene! Thank God for vasectomies...lol. I love my kids, but I have enough :) And when I start to miss holding the little babies, I can always volunteer in Hopeland.

Desperate Housewives

I just got through the first chapter in Every Woman's Marriage by Shannon Ethridge. She blows my mind. I read Every Woman's Battle last year and was transformed by it, and now this book is starting out the same way. Almost as if she can read my mind...kinda creepy. Anyway, this is a huge lesson I've been learning over the past 6 months and have never put into words. I'll let you hear it from Shannon...

"He doesn't meet my emotional needs...I felt like I was nothing more than a maid, cook, nanny, and occasional outlet for sexual tension, positions for which I was sadly underpaid...I was constantly badgering him for not initiating romance anymore, for being too laid back...I was weary of having to hint around for my emotional needs to be met"

Sound familiar to anyone else? Now here is the lesson to be learned:

"In hindsight, I realize that my unhappiness wasn't about what my husband was or wasn't doing; rather it was about how I felt about myself. I needed him to affirm me, to make me feel beautiful, and to convince me that I was desirable, because I didn't know how to feel any of these things on my own...If we fail to acknowledge the need to work on our own issues, we believe that our relational problems must be our husband's fault...we may not stop to consider that we might play a part in our own dance of discontentment."

I am married to a wonderful man and could not ask for a better husband. However, I can't expect him to fill needs that only God can fill. I may wish he would try a little harder..lol...but I'm letting him off the hook. As Shannon says..."At some point we have to put on our big-girl panties and go through the work of resolving our own issues, remedying our own insecurities, and becoming happy with ourselves before we can truly be happy in marriage." I can tell you from experience that this is true. May God reveal to you any issues that you need to lay at His feet.

It's Not Fair!

This has become Jacob's favorite phrase..."It's Not Fair!" We all know life isn't fair. We see other people get blessed with something and wonder why it isn't happening to us. But do we really want life to be fair?

"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God...the wages of sin is death." (Romans 3:23, 6:23) This is what we deserve.

But "Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God" (1 Peter 3:18)

"The gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord...If you confess with you mouth "Jesus is Lord" and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." (Romans 6:23, 10:9)

I wonder if Satan reads these words and shouts "It's Not Fair!!!"

Sharing My Faith

"Some do not want to share their faith because it is awkward. I'll tell you what is awkward...standing in front of Jesus and trying to explain why we didn't share the good news" -Jeff Cooper

Ouch. I have no problem sharing my faith with other Christians...people that I know will agree with me or at least see where I'm coming from. But I do struggle sharing my faith with my un-churched friends and family. On one hand, I care about them and want them to know the hope and freedom of being in a relationship with Christ. But I am also afraid of being "preachy" and pushing them away to the point of them writing me off as a "religious nutcase" :) So how do I find the balance? I've been where they are. I have been skeptical, not wanting to put my faith in something I couldn't completely understand. I've seen the hypocrisy of "Sunday morning Christians". I've viewed Christianity as just a religion...a bunch of rules and rituals. So how do I show them that being a Christian is really about a relationship, not rules? How do I show them that it should be a lifestyle, not just something people do during a service?

I want to just live my life as an example. But I don't have one of those powerful testimonies on the outside...such as the people who have been delivered from addictions or obvious lifestyles of sin. My outward actions probably seem pretty much the same as they've always been. The change for me has been internal. I know that internal changes express themselves externally, but I don't know if it's enough for anyone to notice.

So then I've just gone along with the idea that if my friends know I'm a Christian, I can then leave the ball in their court as to whether they want to discuss faith issues with me. But is this the best policy? I don't know.

I know what Jesus has done in my life. And I long for those I care about to know this same hope. I want them to find true joy in this life, and be able to spend an eternity in heaven. So what's the best way to share my faith, while at the same time just loving them wherever they are? Still searching for the answer to that one...

Walk to Emmaus

Last weekend my husband led music for a mens retreat called the Walk to Emmaus. I went to the closing ceremony and was blessed by hearing the testimonies from the men of how God has impacted their lives. Listening to their stories always adds fuel to my fire and inspires me to share the love of Jesus with others. Several of the men thanked me for giving my husband up for the weekend, and I must say that it was worth it!

So what is the Walk to Emmaus and how can 3 days change someone's life? The retreat is for men and women seeking to strengthen and renew their faith. It is for people of any denomination and from all different points on their spiritual journeys. The goal of Emmaus is to show the love of Jesus and to equip Christians to go back and serve in their home churches and communities. What happens there? You hear talks given by pastors and peers, worship, fellowship with other believers, and are given many unique experiences to connect with God. The Emmaus weekend is unlike any other retreat or conference you may have attended in the past. Many will tell you that it's hard to describe, but is just something that must be experienced. The one thing I can guarantee is that you will feel loved, possibly more than you ever have before.

I went on my Emmaus Walk during my sophomore year of college. I was nervous about being the youngest one there, and not knowing anyone. But none of that mattered. It was one of the best experiences of my life! I have been on team twice since then, each time getting something different out of the weekend.

Sound like something you'd like to do? To go on Emmaus you need to have a sponsor...someone who has been through it. Just ask me and I can either sponsor you myself or connect you with someone who can. The next Walks for men and women are in the fall. You won't regret it!